Raw and Real from the Wild Field Episode 3: Be Careful What You Wish For

As it turns out, I’ve not only had weekday mornings to myself, but the entire weekend too!  I’m sort of pinching myself. One minute I was tired, depleted and overrun with domestic demands, and the next – acres and acres of time and space and inspiration to write. The family’s happy, the sun’s shining and  the retro caravan work space is all set up. Wow!

Well, I did ask for it.  It just shows you what the power of intention can do.  The suddeness and scale of the change can be startling, though.  It strikes you how powerful you really are – that you can make anything happen just by wishing it!   Of course there’s a little more to it than that.  There is an art to using intention to bring about what you desire.

I made this video about it last summer called Attracting and Creating the Life that You Want.  Not surprisingly, it’s my most viewed film!  Take a look if you like…

More recently, at the Entrepreneurs Find Inner Wisdom event I ran this Spring, I also recorded a series of  films about the art of manifestation.  I taught an ancient practice, called the Ah meditation, that powers up our ability to bring into being that which we truly wish for in life.  The whole series is on recent pages of this blog that you can have a look at, but here’s a shortcut to the video of me teaching the practice itself.

Achieving the results that I’d ‘put out for’ so easily was a little scary.  So much so that I caught myself trying to subtely sabotage them talking to my 15 year old son yesterday – “Are you sure you want to stay out another night with friends, Jamie?  Wouldn’t it be a good idea to come home, have a good meal, a decent bed, a shower?  I can always take you out again tomorrow….”

However, mostly I’ve been doing quite well with my saying “no!” practise (to curb my habit of over-giving).   Jamie did call me midweek (when he’s usually with his dad) to ask if he and his friends could come and stay at the wild field for the night.  It was exactly the same request I’d fallen down the hole with last Sunday when I failed to say no.  This time I noticed.  I saw the hole coming and I didn’t even fall into it!  “No, sorry, Jamie.  Your friends can come and stay at the weekend but not in the week when I’m working” – See? Easy.

And so it seems I’m bearing the fruit of my efforts.  It’s been the most glorious, peaceful, lovely few days.  It’s allowed me to realise that I’m in love with the huge skies here at the wild field. Day and night it is ever-changing and beautiful – the light, the clouds, the moon.  I keep wanting to photograph the sky, capture the unique beauty moment by moment, but its impossible.  The best thing is to simply go out and gawp, especially at night when the vast canopy of stars above is simply breath-taking.

This is why we are here.  Somehow, living like this in caravans in the big outdoors connects me so strongly with my rightful place in nature.  As a coaching client described it this week, it allows me to feel “in my skin”. I’m getting fit and brown and can feel the grass between my toes and the breeze on my face.  I can breath deeply and enjoy every mouthful I take and every movement I make.

In the first week here, sleepless and sobbing with exhaustion, my husband, Pat, could not console me.  Instead he called me outside and took my hand beneath the sparkling night sky.  “Look”, he said, pointing up.  Gazing into the vastness was a perfect, wordless reminder of what I truly am – an infinite spiritual being tasting a moment of human form in an endless universe of ever-changing miraculous beauty.  What could possibly be wrong?